randomization
Oct. 29th, 2025 11:06 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
neonanimai should keep writing. keep writing something. it's 10 months in. it is beyond satire, it's beyond embarrassing. it is immeasurable and for that reason i can see why the outer fringes want it. i can see why someone would think the rules of the universe have been broken and it's their time to shine, whether that's finally killing all the brown people with robot dogs or breaking through the simulation or immanentizing the eschaton.
one comfort is that everyone controlling him must think their hand is the main hand up his ass. the star hand. the waxing and waning of his cognition possibly adds a degree of unpredictability that, like an extra chromosome, throws the whole plan off course. the chance of him dying two days from now or two decades from now, that's antithetical to the whole idea of strategy. but then i think the incompetence is too egregious to be anything but part of the scheme. if they were really that incompetent, wouldn't russia or china have already wiped us out? wouldn't there have been 18 9-11s by now? maybe. maybe it's a veil that keeps us just calm enough to laugh at jimmy kimmel and jon stewart.
i'm always asking myself if i'm doing the radical or resistant thing. i always feel the compulsion to do the thing that puts off The Algorithm and The Algorithm has come to mean not just the digital feeds but the patterns that the flock cameras detect, the movements my phone tracks, the words i type, the things i buy, the thoughts i have. i would like to try and randomize.
mamdani hope feels like obama hope. i think this, then the youtube comments confirm it, then my friend's response confirms it when i show them his rally speech. which makes me think it's orchestrated. i even thought they'll never get behind a muslim the same way i thought they'll never get behind someone who's middle name is hussein. i think, good marketing. good. use an ip you're familiar with, one proven to have worked before. what's audacious now is a little bit more audacious than it was 17 years ago.
obama says maybe we should be tested. maybe we should be shaken out of our complacency. this is why obama hope feels like a subscription that ran out. obama the brand, obama the nostalgia, obama the era, obama the opium. it's strange how fast reality broke. we don't even know how to process para-social relationships yet. people livestream for hours—for hours, for 5 hours at a time, did you know this?—and there are people who grew up immersed in this, with no way to even know their brain is registering as a friend someone who isn't their friend. the woke-scolding and virtue signaling, there are people who have been doing this since they were 11 years old and they probably don't know that virtue signaling is inauthentic, they probably think that's just how you interact with other people.
i scoff at the idea that trump said the cognitive test he took was hard, then see that the last question is to count backward from 100 by 7s and realize i can't do this. i know there's some trick to it that other people were taught or remember from elementary school and i look it up. the trick is you subtract 10 then add 3.
i thought i would start practicing living with less. bought beans, rice, and chicken instead of snacks that replace the missing fat and sugar with sodium. i admit, i showed google gemini what i was eating and asked it why i've gained 6 pounds in 1.5 months of eating better and working out. sodium is the problem, it said.
everyone says "they already have all the data on you anyway" and i say "why do they keep asking for it, then?"
they must need more, they must need to refresh it or triangulate it or something. any light i can keep unlit, any gap i can insert, i'll do it.
there will always be things they can't measure. there will always be things that can't be turned into math.
one comfort is that everyone controlling him must think their hand is the main hand up his ass. the star hand. the waxing and waning of his cognition possibly adds a degree of unpredictability that, like an extra chromosome, throws the whole plan off course. the chance of him dying two days from now or two decades from now, that's antithetical to the whole idea of strategy. but then i think the incompetence is too egregious to be anything but part of the scheme. if they were really that incompetent, wouldn't russia or china have already wiped us out? wouldn't there have been 18 9-11s by now? maybe. maybe it's a veil that keeps us just calm enough to laugh at jimmy kimmel and jon stewart.
i'm always asking myself if i'm doing the radical or resistant thing. i always feel the compulsion to do the thing that puts off The Algorithm and The Algorithm has come to mean not just the digital feeds but the patterns that the flock cameras detect, the movements my phone tracks, the words i type, the things i buy, the thoughts i have. i would like to try and randomize.
mamdani hope feels like obama hope. i think this, then the youtube comments confirm it, then my friend's response confirms it when i show them his rally speech. which makes me think it's orchestrated. i even thought they'll never get behind a muslim the same way i thought they'll never get behind someone who's middle name is hussein. i think, good marketing. good. use an ip you're familiar with, one proven to have worked before. what's audacious now is a little bit more audacious than it was 17 years ago.
obama says maybe we should be tested. maybe we should be shaken out of our complacency. this is why obama hope feels like a subscription that ran out. obama the brand, obama the nostalgia, obama the era, obama the opium. it's strange how fast reality broke. we don't even know how to process para-social relationships yet. people livestream for hours—for hours, for 5 hours at a time, did you know this?—and there are people who grew up immersed in this, with no way to even know their brain is registering as a friend someone who isn't their friend. the woke-scolding and virtue signaling, there are people who have been doing this since they were 11 years old and they probably don't know that virtue signaling is inauthentic, they probably think that's just how you interact with other people.
i scoff at the idea that trump said the cognitive test he took was hard, then see that the last question is to count backward from 100 by 7s and realize i can't do this. i know there's some trick to it that other people were taught or remember from elementary school and i look it up. the trick is you subtract 10 then add 3.
i thought i would start practicing living with less. bought beans, rice, and chicken instead of snacks that replace the missing fat and sugar with sodium. i admit, i showed google gemini what i was eating and asked it why i've gained 6 pounds in 1.5 months of eating better and working out. sodium is the problem, it said.
everyone says "they already have all the data on you anyway" and i say "why do they keep asking for it, then?"
they must need more, they must need to refresh it or triangulate it or something. any light i can keep unlit, any gap i can insert, i'll do it.
there will always be things they can't measure. there will always be things that can't be turned into math.