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petty window of rage
Jun. 1st, 2024 10:06 pma shutter blew off one of my windows months ago and my neighbor politely asked me to fix it because she's selling her home and might have to "crop out" my home. okay. i agreed to do it but it's been slipping my mind. the hoa who normally jumps on my ass about anything as soon as they get the chance has been silent on the issue and i've seen other shutters missing from other windows in the neighborhood so of course the accomplice of time blindness and procrastination in my brain covertly pressed "pause" on the problem.
last night there was a trailer hitched to a pick-up taking up three parking spaces, including both of mine, so i knocked on my neighbor's door. there were about four people there moving my neighbor's things out. a guy called down to the girl who'd answered the door "can't they just park somewhere else?" my temper flared at the entitled dismissal and i might have let it go if it looked like they'd made any attempt to use only the space they needed, but they were straight up diagonal like they were trying to take up as many spots as possible, so i yelled up "can you please move your truck? you're taking up three spots and two are mine."
today my neighbor texts me at 2 pm on a sunday asking when i can get my shutter fixed, vaguely threatening to contact the hoa about it. i can do nothing about it at 2pm on sunday and i suspected this might have been because of the encounter with the moving-helpers last night, plus my nephew just asked me for money because he and my grandmother can't pay their bills. i know it was needlessly and stupidly hostile, but because of all this i impulsively texted back "call them then."
it felt like such an accomplished and grown-up thing, to have a good relationship with my neighbor. i warned her about roll cart thieves after mine was stolen. she alerted me to a problem with my outside drain that i was completely oblivious to. i offered to keep her boxes of delivered clothes till she got home so they wouldn't be stolen. it was nice to know this person was going to leave the city with a pleasant memory of her former neighbor, fellow bachelorette. and still i got a little thrill out of snatching back my good will. it felt good to invite her wrath and my hoa's to rain down on me. i've suffered so much bullshit from them in my time living here, i want them all to know that i expect irrational vengeful tedium from them and i don't care.
last night there was a trailer hitched to a pick-up taking up three parking spaces, including both of mine, so i knocked on my neighbor's door. there were about four people there moving my neighbor's things out. a guy called down to the girl who'd answered the door "can't they just park somewhere else?" my temper flared at the entitled dismissal and i might have let it go if it looked like they'd made any attempt to use only the space they needed, but they were straight up diagonal like they were trying to take up as many spots as possible, so i yelled up "can you please move your truck? you're taking up three spots and two are mine."
today my neighbor texts me at 2 pm on a sunday asking when i can get my shutter fixed, vaguely threatening to contact the hoa about it. i can do nothing about it at 2pm on sunday and i suspected this might have been because of the encounter with the moving-helpers last night, plus my nephew just asked me for money because he and my grandmother can't pay their bills. i know it was needlessly and stupidly hostile, but because of all this i impulsively texted back "call them then."
it felt like such an accomplished and grown-up thing, to have a good relationship with my neighbor. i warned her about roll cart thieves after mine was stolen. she alerted me to a problem with my outside drain that i was completely oblivious to. i offered to keep her boxes of delivered clothes till she got home so they wouldn't be stolen. it was nice to know this person was going to leave the city with a pleasant memory of her former neighbor, fellow bachelorette. and still i got a little thrill out of snatching back my good will. it felt good to invite her wrath and my hoa's to rain down on me. i've suffered so much bullshit from them in my time living here, i want them all to know that i expect irrational vengeful tedium from them and i don't care.